Love has no place in your heart. You don’t know the value of a woman. You understood marriage as ownership of another human.

Allow me to show you your mistakes. Perhaps one day you will be a better man for your own sake.

I tried, but you’re no longer here in body and mind. I’m alone next to you every time, alone at home every night.

Your hearing is impaired when I try to talk to you. I’m invisible when I need you. I’m under your foot and can’t move.

My heart is desperate for you to see my pain. My mind is racing, trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. I wondered if you were with another. Would you be the same as you were with me?

Where’s the charm? The gentleman with a wide smile, who made me breakfast in bed with a coffee well brewed. The man I thought I would be with, for a long time, walking hand in hand in every sweetness and bitterness of life just as we did when we did for the first time.

Together till we leave each other, for death is not in our control. 

When we finally got married, it thrilled me to be your wife; I was proud of you in front of my friends and family.

If only I knew there was another side of you hiding like a wild animal hunting prey in the dark. I blamed myself so many times for the change in you. I believed everything you said about me has caused you to act the way you did. Every time I try to fix myself, there’s always something else I need to change. Over the years, I’ve changed until I no longer recognized myself, until I surrender to your will and accept I’m the reason for all the mess.

Say goodbye, and I’m gone. Take one more look before I vanish.

There’s no time to correct my mistake. I’ve wasted so much time arguing with you. Years of love lost, wasted away in your ocean of ego and narcissism. It’s too late to shed tears, too late to apologize; no sorry is enough to soften my heart. I’ve never stopped loving you, but you fed my love, hate, anger, and dismay. Perhaps now I can say, Look now at what you did? Perhaps now I can put the blame on you, where it really belongs.

Tomorrow is another day. Life might turn out great for you if you change your ways.

I don’t want to turn back time; I’ll lose my mind. To change my mind is to humiliate my dignity and my wish for a new life, a new start, in freedom and in peace.

I’m sure everything will be alright, and if not, that’s fine. I’ll accept I have to fight another fight.

I’m looking for me, the girl from across the street. She was innocent and gentle. She got swept off her feet by an eagle. only to find his claws tight on her heart.  She couldn’t release herself back to where she came from.

You turned me wild in your hands. Here I am, soft in touch, harsh at heart. I bloomed into an opium, as resentment took over my heart and ripped me apart. Life is hard for any girl looking for a knight to save her heart. But this girl can swim in the dark.

There are no regrets. What was in the past has gone with the wind. I will still smile and wish myself good luck.